I remember my old wishes.

I remember when I was just a little girl. My wishes for my future was not what now I wish. I couldn't imagine how will be my life, but was not in my mind at all live in other country. I think I was hoping find the right love , have a house, have job.. And not so much else. Today it's nothing close to that, I don't know what to think about love, Im not sure if I hope have my own house, and about job... It's everything about job. I wish get the perfect job, learn , get experience, growth at the company and maybe make my own company. All other things I'm not sure what exactly I want. Unfortunately love it's an enigma in my mind. I know I don't wanna imagine myself alone, and I would like be with someone who make me happy, who I can travel with, enjoy the life, make plans, have fun... Sounds easy. It's just the way I want love, but I have the sensation it's not that easy. If I'm honest I'm scared to suffer for someone, and everything it's more complicate when it's two people. Two people what thinks different, ... That means we need to learn how find the balance sometimes. And also, the honestly... I'm not feel like I trust anyone jet.
... But it's not just that... Sometimes I'm asking myself; what it's love? I suppose to feel like my heart go more fast , like the life is pink ...? Really? I feel like that is just a fals publicity. I would love find a Man who wait for me with a rose at my door, who surprise me with candles and a romantic dinner, who say to me the most beautiful things, but this not a real man. My ex boy friend did, yes! The three firth month, after that he was just him. This second him, was not romantic was nothing. So my pink world was in the garbage. What I need to hope about man or about love? I really don't know.

But if I think about traditional life, buy a house, have kids... I just I don't feel in the same page. Have kids it's not in my way, I can't imagine myself doing every single day the same. I wanna keep my free time for adventure, for travel, ... Buy a house? Why? I did, and was just something what cut my freedom. If I have a propriety it's for make money. Money for make money for me. There is the secret. That its something what I know now, and it's in my mind everyday. I'm looking for find the way.

Actually Im focus in get the best education for my future, and trying to find my way in the present, but without so much rules... Just living at the some point unprevisabol.

But everything change , it's like the skin , like the cels in the body... Your life, your wishes, ...can change at the last minute. Who knows.just live every single second the way you wanna life that second. Stay away of the dark, be positive, passionate and brave, because never will be now again.